might go down town and look for a XFPS adaptor to connect my keyboard and mouse so i can play games on the PS3 without useing a controler. Or i'll go and see few of my friends and see what they are doing, never know who might come up to me.

why am i writing a journal for people to see it? i just dont know why. I think im just trying to get attention but i might be wronge. My family still worries about me about what happened last wednesday after school, didnt know how much they love me but i dont know about the other, like that person i love.

i just cant smile no more, i try but it doesnt make me happy inside of me, its like that goodness it blocked away in the darkness, that light and i dont know who can open it and let it out so i can feel happy for another couple of mounths, thats when it'll be time.